22 Sivan 5779 / Tuesday, June 25, 2019 | Torah Reading: Korach
 
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His whole life seemed upside down. No matter how hard he tried, things were not turning out the way he thought they should. Finally, he gave up and walked out to the field...

 



I walk these empty streets looking for the only friend I have ever known. I go to all of the places we usually meet but he is not there. I turned down Ezra Street and ran into the Pi synagogue.  I thought I heard someone call me but when I turned around no one was there. I was at a very low point. My whole life seemed upside down. No matter how hard I tried things just were not turning out the way I thought they should. Finally I gave up and walked out to the field. I cried out at the top of my voice 'Where are you?'  Suddenly I heard someone behind me and I turned around. It was my friend. He said 'I have been looking for you, and I even called out to you, but you did not hear me. I have been out here in the field waiting for you!”
 
Many times we feel lost and alone but Hashem is calling out to us, looking for us, and waiting for us.  We are never alone. It is written in Psalm 139:8, "If I ascend to Heaven, You are there and if I make my bed in Hell, here you are." King David knew that in times of trouble Hashem is right beside us. All we have to do is reach out our hands.
 
Life is a journey filled with awe, wonder, and challenges. As I stand on the road of life I look behind me and I see how far I have travelled.  My life has been filled with peaks and valleys. I have had moments of overwhelming joy and moments that did not seem so joyful. Many times I was so weak that it was hard to carry on. I would go to the field and the words just did not come. So I said Hashem 'Today we will just sit together'. Those were the times when my heart was so broken that I couldn’t even speak, that I came closest to Hashem. I felt Hashem in the deepest reaches of my soul. The pain and suffering disappeared. Hashem loves us whether we are screaming at the top of our lungs or are as silent as winter's night. The main point is to be with Hashem.
 
Turning to the road ahead of me I see a vastness that I cannot comprehend. I have no idea what lies ahead. I only know that Hashem loves me and is with me. I will not despair and I will not be afraid.





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